When I starting dating, I had no idea how much being in relationship would change me and my understanding of the world. I have not only found my rock and true supporter, but becam stronger and more dependent than ever. It’s rather strange combination, isn’t it?
I was flying today from one end of the world to the other and you know how long these flights can be. So, the only thing that saves you is sleep. Before meeting my partner, sleep was extremely easy for me and now… I can sleep much better when I am touching/hugging my partner. It simply calms me down and helps to fight all dragons out there. And that’s not the only thing that changed. As I said, I became stronger because of our relationship. I dear to dream and act on my dreams because of him. I dear to fight my battles which seemed impossible before meeting him. I dear to accept my failures and fall apart at least for five minutes. These things are possible because I know that he will stand by me no matter what. While these things are awesome, I became extremely dependent on him. As I said, my dreams are better when he is next to me. I feel better if he approves of my decisions; that’s incredibly stupid, I know. My emotions are strongly related to his – I am unhappy if he is unhappy. I believe in myself if he believes in me. You see – it would be incredibly for me to survive without him and his support.
I want make one thing clear – being dependent on another person is not bad in itself. If you have the right person, it even helps (that’s how it works in my case). It was simply strange for me how relationship changes you. I used to say that whenever I started dating, I would be the same. I was so naive! Love is such a powerful feeling that it’s nearly impossible to remain the same when touched by it. Because I used to value my independance, I still struggle with accepting lack of it. Nonentheless, I am extremely grateful for the strength that this relationship gave to me.